I am not sure where to start on this subject. its a sensitive subject. May be I could start by saying-I am no authority on this subject, I am not a trained nutritionist but I have had an experience on the matter and that is all i intend to share. my failures , my lessons and somewhat success. Yes, I have been there!
This is before and after. 120kgs and 80kgs repectively
With Kendi and Tana in 2009
With Kendi and Tana 2011
I have had a few people pass me by, yes, of late I am having to great my friends because in one way or another they can’t recognize me and my hair cut is not helping either. Once I say hi-what follows is ...my! What did you do? You have lost a lot of weight.
Yes, i have lost 40kgs (88pounds) which i think is a lot of weight.
I am not here to share some magic or advertise for some diet that works or a pill that you can swallow, I just want to share my story and I hope it can help somebody. May be, maybe not.
Let me begin- when i met my boyfriend, with whom i am sharing a bed to date –I was 70kg. Thanks to all the outings and travelling – I added 15 kg.
On my wedding day I weighed 85 kg. And if you think it used to bother me, I am sorry. Not for a day!
So I got pregnant with our first child and by the time I gave birth i was 97kgs. After three months at home, I was 110kg...oh...and did it bother me....YES ...or may be sometimes ...then after 8 months I got pregnant with my second baby...after birth and all that goes with it. I weighed 120kg. Alah! Yes 120 Kgs! I gave birth to a baby girl who was 4.2 kg...talk of pushing a big baby!
Did it bother me-well YES!...The comments from people, the Oh my God Looks!, yes that bothered me.. but all I remember is the shock on our pediatrician face during one of those visits He asked me if I had gestational diabetes during the pregnancy and I said “No”. Blood pressure “No”, how was your sugar level? ‘Fine”
I knew things were BAD!
Okay-so my thinking processes began. I know so many people had commented on how fat I had become. To the point that i was getting used to it. At some point I used to wonder -is it really that bad? Do people have to literally scream right in-front of my face? Sometimes I would meet a friend and she would scream and go like .Oooohhhhh my Goooooooood! The naive me would start looking around wondering what is the shock all about-just for the person to say- you have become sooooo big!
Okay- not so good to hear that, was that honestly supposed to make you feel better? I remember one episode I was with my sister and this lady did the same screaming ooh my God thing! Then I responded by telling her, i am also surprised, at how fat I have become. Later on my sister told me that was funny! I told her I am kind of used to people screaming on my face about my weight.
So anyway one day-i day it dawned on me that my body carries the vision that God has placed in my heart, as much as i am getting all lazy about it- God needs my hands and my feet and all of me, i cannot minister his love in the spirit only.....so i decided to wake up and do something
which i will share soon ........
but let me warn you that weight issues have more to do with your inner being rather that your outward look. Not long ago- i met someone whom i had not seen in a long while. She is so petite, like size 8 , literary half my size. She screams and shouts - Damn! you have lost so much weight, you make me feel so FAT! Okay this is the point where i faint!
Have a healthy week! more lessons and failures coming soon.....
which i will share soon ........
but let me warn you that weight issues have more to do with your inner being rather that your outward look. Not long ago- i met someone whom i had not seen in a long while. She is so petite, like size 8 , literary half my size. She screams and shouts - Damn! you have lost so much weight, you make me feel so FAT! Okay this is the point where i faint!
Have a healthy week! more lessons and failures coming soon.....
wow! weight issues, sensitive issues, but we have power within us to handle this. your article is really encouraging that i will be around to hear all about it. You have really challenged me through your writting..thanks emmah....still waiting for househelp part 2
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing on that sensitive topic. Over the years Emma, even with the ups and the downs of the weight issues, I have admired your attitude.Your heart has always been warm and even if someone said something so hurtful regarding your weight, you always smiled and never once did I hear you say anything negative.I think that is commendable.
ReplyDeleteAgain I insist that we need to ask God to help us be slow to speak and quick to listen. May we be careful about statements we make regarding people's weight. May God help me to try and understand how to be sensitive because maybe the person is already struggling with the issue, why increase their agony?Why not edify them instead with a positive word?