Tarry here.

• So, God promised something and its seems like it’s taking forever to come to pass?
• You have waited for too long and there are no signs of hope around the corner?
• Actually – did God even speak to you in the first place?
• Wait a minute – this open ended-ness is driving you crazy?

You know, I love God…and I am determined to pursue Him, however His concept of sovereignty is mind boggling.  You know that part that says – “He is God and we are not”.

Sometimes God give details, sometimes He leaves things hanging – or so we think, not that we fill the answers but that He will bring it to completion.

I sort of relate with Aaron, Hur, Nadab , Abihu and the 70 of the elders of Israel. These guys were left somewhere down the mountain and Moses tells them, tarry here for us until we come back to you (exodus 24:14). Joshua and I are about to go up the mountain. (Those were the instructions that God had given then-to go up the mountain). I am sure Moses had no clue of how long they will be up there.

Now, my challenge is tarry here for us until we come back. – Well, not bad, I can only imagine the people must have thought Mosses and Joshua are up for a few, hours, then days, then weeks, then…then…and then…the waiting was too long….

So they finally concluded – in chapter 32...these guys have delayed and for this guy called Moses we don’t know what became of him.

What shocks me is that these guys are no stranger to who God is if you read chapter 24, my amplified bible puts it this way “and they saw the God is Israel, a convincing manifestation of His presence, and under His feet it was like pavement of bright sapphire stone, like the very heavens  in its clearness” verse 10.

So- what is with the change of heart having being such witnesses of God’s presence?

If you follow through the conversation between God and Moses, you will realize the Aaron and Company, gave up just before Moses was about to come down.

Well, I was thinking that it is one thing to be clear about when this or that will happen, it is another thing to know that it will happen but you don’t know when?

I would imagine that the latter calls for more patience.
 

So my dear, if you are in the tarrying position with no clue of the dates, the times …please hang on right there. Don’t started wondering what your Moses became of? Even when it gets real dark, still hold on to what you heard in the light. You know you heard it-it was clear, God spoke,  with clear evidence of His presence, hang on, don’t grow weary…as hard as it may be…be still and know that He is God. 

A lesson from Dixie

We now have dogs! 

 We have Bruno and Dixie. I have not taken a photo of Bruno but i have one of Dixie. We lost one, his name was Poppy...and we hope to get another one soon so that they are three.

 This is the day Dixie arrived in our home, she was just calm. It did not bother her that she was now going to be living with a new family.

 

 She even enjoyed a good nap right in-front of me. As i watched her i wondered, how could she trust so easily, well i know she is not a human being but really, where was all that confidence and calmness coming from?

 

She could even play with the kids like immediately...

 and enjoy the sun

To be very honest- i prayed that i could develop such a trust with God. Just to relax and know that i am safe in Him.

Okay a part from that, the kids are having a ball with the dogs.

Bruno is a German shepherd, so Dixie is more playful than him.

Truth

I don’t know what the New Year holds, but I do have a more deeper hunger and thirst for God. 

The loss of my nephew last year did to an extent throw me off guard as far as my relationship with God is concerned. But I must say that I am grateful that how I feel about God does not mean that God feels the same about me. His word tells me how He feels about me. Oh...He loves me..and more...

I have one major commitment in life. To know God.  Many times I here people say- Here I am Lord use me! I am sorry, but I do not seem to fall in that category quite often. My prayer is more of, here I am Lord, I want to know you, change me for yourself, and I want to walk in habitual fellowship with you.

This brings me to the next questions.

•  How do you walk in habitual fellowship with someone that you don’t know more so if what you think you know about them is not the actual truth?

•  How do you love someone deeply and intimately unless you know how they love to be loved?

Jesus said- if you love me, OBEY my commandments. Period.

Back to walking and having a deep an intimate relationship with God- During one of the days that we gathered to comfort my bro and sis for the loss of their son, my nephew, one pastor came and said “God is good and He does good”.  Those words were sort of amplified in my heart and I remember whispering to to God like – Really? You are good and you do good, even at this moment? 

Now, as the year begins I have a deep thirst to know God. To know Him and to relate with Him in Truth and to interact with the truth of whom He really is. I think through our experiences and socialization we can easily develop deep deceptive notions of who God is. And these deceptions hinder our walk/intimacy with God.

So this year I begin my journey.So far I have learnt and am meditating through the study of His word on certain truths about God;

•  God does not delight in wickedness : Psalm 5:4
• God is good and does good Psalm 119:68
• God is rigidly righteous Psalm 11:7

….and the learning of this Truth continues……  

By the help of the Holy Spirit I desire to reconfigure my thinking to the accurate understanding of the Truth of who God is. Why? I am committed to walking with Him- I need to Know Him if I am to walk Him intimately.  

He Provides-Caroline Part 2.

God truly does answer our prayers. He is an amazing Father!

Last year in August we prayed that God would grant us the finances to assist Caroline with her college fees.

For more about her story, please check here....

We trusted the Almighty, all sufficient God and He did it! We give praise to His Holy, Awesome, and Wonderful name!!!!

 

 Having lunch after the  graduation to celebrate her achievement and God's goodness!

 You are likely to see this two in my blog a lot. They are great company. Bro and his wife Sly.

 I just loved this two faces! Ethan and his cousin Samara

 Cute! Don't you think so...full cheeks!

 Trying to make faces too.

Caroline-proud of her.

 Caroline with her Mum

 Caroline with her Mum and brother.

 Caroline with Sly and myself.

 Caroline with my family. 

I know God has great plans for her life. We are blessed to be part of her life. She is currently an  intern with a Non Governmental Prganization, she loves her work and we know God will lead to the rest.

Truth

I am currently learning about the Truth!

Let me ask you a question?  Are you living the Truth of the word of God?

Can you say that – your life is based on nothing but the truth of the Word of God?

In one of my quiet times with God, I have learnt that, even if I do not live the Truth that is in the Word of God, it does not change the fact that it is the Truth! So guess who is the looser?

For example, if I don’t believe that God loves me, it does not change the fact that He loves me! I can mourn all day but He loves me Period!

So, the other day I prayed to God and asked Him to open my eyes to all areas of deception in my life and free me from all deceptive bondages and lead me to His eternal Truth.

Okay, this is what I believe.

• If there is a Christian life to be lived, then I want to live it to the full.
• If there are truths in the word of God that need to be applied in my life, then I need to live and apply them.
• If Jesus died that I may have an abundant life- then why not have it all!

Really what’s the point of being a half baked Christian?

What’s the point of believing some things in the bible and living like some of the texts in the bible do not exist at all?

I have learnt a new one. When I am faced with a situation- I ask…what the truth about this situation?

It is that truth that sets me free. Sometimes I do not want to hear it, but it is the TRUTH.

Picture this. I am worried about a certain situation and have been worried for days. First and foremost- that is asin (The bible says-Do not worry!!). So a part from the fact that I need to go before God in repentance for worrying, I need to face the Truth. The bible says, do not WORRY. Period and when I choose to walk in disobedience and worry, it does not change the Truth that I should not worry.

I believe that the enemy capitalizes on deceit; he likes it when we have half truths and live pitiful Christian lives, while Jesus died so that we may have an abundant life.

So I dare you today- just like I have been daring myself. If there are TRUTHS to be lived, I choose to live them, honestly, as one preacher said, if Jesus died that we may have life and have it in abundance it must be a sin not to live such a life.

...and I know I am preaching to myself so help me God!.....