A lesson from Dixie

We now have dogs! 

 We have Bruno and Dixie. I have not taken a photo of Bruno but i have one of Dixie. We lost one, his name was Poppy...and we hope to get another one soon so that they are three.

 This is the day Dixie arrived in our home, she was just calm. It did not bother her that she was now going to be living with a new family.

 

 She even enjoyed a good nap right in-front of me. As i watched her i wondered, how could she trust so easily, well i know she is not a human being but really, where was all that confidence and calmness coming from?

 

She could even play with the kids like immediately...

 and enjoy the sun

To be very honest- i prayed that i could develop such a trust with God. Just to relax and know that i am safe in Him.

Okay a part from that, the kids are having a ball with the dogs.

Bruno is a German shepherd, so Dixie is more playful than him.

Truth

I don’t know what the New Year holds, but I do have a more deeper hunger and thirst for God. 

The loss of my nephew last year did to an extent throw me off guard as far as my relationship with God is concerned. But I must say that I am grateful that how I feel about God does not mean that God feels the same about me. His word tells me how He feels about me. Oh...He loves me..and more...

I have one major commitment in life. To know God.  Many times I here people say- Here I am Lord use me! I am sorry, but I do not seem to fall in that category quite often. My prayer is more of, here I am Lord, I want to know you, change me for yourself, and I want to walk in habitual fellowship with you.

This brings me to the next questions.

•  How do you walk in habitual fellowship with someone that you don’t know more so if what you think you know about them is not the actual truth?

•  How do you love someone deeply and intimately unless you know how they love to be loved?

Jesus said- if you love me, OBEY my commandments. Period.

Back to walking and having a deep an intimate relationship with God- During one of the days that we gathered to comfort my bro and sis for the loss of their son, my nephew, one pastor came and said “God is good and He does good”.  Those words were sort of amplified in my heart and I remember whispering to to God like – Really? You are good and you do good, even at this moment? 

Now, as the year begins I have a deep thirst to know God. To know Him and to relate with Him in Truth and to interact with the truth of whom He really is. I think through our experiences and socialization we can easily develop deep deceptive notions of who God is. And these deceptions hinder our walk/intimacy with God.

So this year I begin my journey.So far I have learnt and am meditating through the study of His word on certain truths about God;

•  God does not delight in wickedness : Psalm 5:4
• God is good and does good Psalm 119:68
• God is rigidly righteous Psalm 11:7

….and the learning of this Truth continues……  

By the help of the Holy Spirit I desire to reconfigure my thinking to the accurate understanding of the Truth of who God is. Why? I am committed to walking with Him- I need to Know Him if I am to walk Him intimately.  

To all possessive mothers

Well, can I start by saying that I think i do boarder around being possessive and I am praying about it.

You will hear a lot of stories about mothers and how they are possessive of their children. My friends and I were discussing about this the other day and while it is an area of contention I must admit it is one those issues I am leaning to take to the Lord in prayer because I do not want to go overboard and worst of all, limit God’s move in the lives of our children because of my utter selfishness.

A friend once gave me a story of how her son was so sick for weeks and one day the Lord spoke to her heart and told her, ‘every time you pray for him, you say, God heal "my" son, I want you to say, God, please heal this your child” and the child was instantly healed. The issues was not the grammar, it was the mere lesson that, please remember, he is my son, my child, and you are only a steward.

Let’s think about it further, 

• David, young boy born of a woman for master’s use, served king Saul and latter become king
• Samuel, the mother had to let go after weaning for masters use
• Joseph, separated from family at 17 years of age for masters use
• Queen Esther – was an orphan, taken in my Mordecai, her uncle …for masters use 

Well, what I am saying is this, God uses men and women, this men and women are born by women. Now the women, who bear these little precious ones, must be careful to remember, these children first and foremost belong to the Lord. They are not ours to keep (What a hard truth!)…Pray that the Lord helps us mothers, not to abort Gods divine purpose for our children just because we cannot let go.

When we attended parenting class by navigators 4 years ago, the underlying message was "preparing our children to leave"…I hope you are preparing yours to leave…because they will…for masters use!!! Well, I am trying…help me Jesus!!!

Servant leadership

Just to say the least. It’s been a tough in the last many weeks. As usual blogging becomes one of the least on my priority list, not because I do not value blogging but I just don’t have that much time to do so. I am positive things will change and will be writing weekly if not daily. 

Tell you what. We moved homes, and it take me quite some time to get to work because of jams and that has had to mean I adjust a few things in my life and my evenings are also busy because I get home a little later. At some point, I wondered if the move was right, but at the same time I knew that God had provide a place we can now call our home and we have seen his miraculous provisions in providing that. 

With all these I am grateful for my hubby, for all the things he does to make my life a bit more bearable. He has a job that I envy with all my heart. He has flexible time, can even work from home and work at night and spend good quality time with the kids. I have an 8-5 job which has traveling included. Many times, I wish we could switch jobs. But above all that I chose to look at the grace that comes with having him and just the role he plays in my life.

• I never have to think of whether the car has been serviced I get in and just drive
• He will always check on the kids homework and keeps me updated
• He will help me with any form of paper work that he can do just to lighten my load
•  He has called or sent a message every single day since we got married just to find out how my day is going
• He has never failed to drop me or pick me at the airport unless it is completely impossible
• When I travel, he will ensure I talk with the kids and if possible on Skype
• when he thinks am super exhausted-he will sometimes if money allows organize for a get away
•  Most of all, he will pray and fast for his family, for me, he will open up the Word of God and speak a word of encouragement. 

I could say much but, the kind of servant leadership I see in my husband is one that I greatly admire. And I am so grateful for him.

 Above all- I thank God – God holds it all for us and His grace is immeasurable. He is our constant strength and our personal bravery.

To do a thing

Samuel 3:11 “The Lord told Samuel, behold I am about to do a thing in Israel…”  and the story goes on and on. 

We have two books of Samuel. 1st and 2^nd Samuel. Samuel is one if the great prophets in the Old Testament. I may not have studied much about him, but I know that through Samuel, God brought down kingdoms and established others. It’s through Samuel that we encounter David. And through David, God establishes His everlasting Kingdom through our Lord Jesus Christ and don’t we love to read the book of Psalms, mediating upon the word of the Lord as David and others poured out their hearts to God.

Don’t we learn so much about Saul on the need to obey other than sacrifice, don’t we love to hear about David and Goliath, don’t we love to hear about the Wisdom of Solomon, don’t we envy (holy envy) the relationship  that David had with Jonathan. I mean we read the two books of Samuel and your heart is filled with awe about our God. That in deed He is mighty to save and true to His word. 

When God said, “behold I am about to do a thing in Israel” I would like to bring to your attention that this “thing” was not birthed by Samuel; this “thing” was born in pain by one woman, known as Hannah. She may only appear in the first two or so chapters of the 1^st book of Samuel, but it all began with Hannah. 

Hannah prayed to God that He would grant her a son. She was desperate. And her crying with so much despair and anguish to God changed destiny. Hannahs’ cry was way beyond herself! May be she did not know, but we know. She may never have seen it but we live it! We testify of it.

Are you crying out to God today? Are you calling him on behalf of your children? Are you persistently seeking Him and waiting on Him. are you desperate like Hannah? Please persist. Just keep pressing on. Your cry to the Lord could be the very foundation through which God will establish part of His divine will on earth. The next time you read about Samuel, be encouraged that it all began with Hannah.

Husband Battering

I guess most of us have been reading and hearing about husband battering in Nyeri province. Well I need to correct a few issues here before is progress. 

a)      Not all Nyeri women batter their husbands-They are great and awesome women in Nyeri. There are great marriages in Nyeri too. When you say all women are, or all men are…those are called Gender stereotypes!

b)      It does not matter who beats who- it is a criminal offence! Women should not think that they have the right and can get away with husband beating regardless of their furry!

I did not say much last week because it was a BUSY week to say the least. I was busy planning and training the Provincial Administration from Central province on the Gender and Equality gains in our Kenyan constitution 2010 Needless to say, I knew for sure being in Nyeri (where they all gathered) would definitely mean that some issues like husband battering would up.

Sad I must say! Very sad…as the women heads retaliate with strong voices that they will continue to beat their husbands and encourage their women fellows to beat them!

One story was narrated that made me feel very sad.

One of the husbands who has recently been beaten had literally come home just to find his wife who works as a casual laborer feeding her(their) children. They were feeding on some piece of Ugali (corn meal) with no stew whatsoever because she could not afford and the only few coins she had made for the day she had used  to purchase some flour and 250ml of milk for her other little baby.

Her husband had come home very drunk (from drinking illicit brew) demanding for food. When he was given the Ugali with no accompaniment of course, he began to insult the wife and abusing her for making incomplete meals. With little common sense if any in his head, the man took away the remaining Ugali and ate it all up with the 250ml of milk in the feeding bottle.

The reason the wife beat him up was not that he ate the Ugali but that he took the 250ml of milk which the wife had reserved for the night for their 7months old baby.

Well that said. My dear readers, the family unit is under attack. Mothers are crying out for their families and they have resulted to taking charge of their families to the extent of killing their husbands.  And if you think they are apologetic of what they are doing – let me assure you they are not! At lest that is the feeling I got from the meeting.

I do not have comments right now on this topic. It is the one that I am praying about, I have a heart for families and I all I can say for now is that, may the Lord restore sanity to our families. May He restore the right order, in the mean time, I will be reaching out to families, and I will make my voice known everywhere I go! And I pray that it will not be my voice but the VOICE of God reaching out to this generation.