Why?

Why is it so hard to trust God even when He has been so faithful in your life and you have absolute evidence in your life that He never fails? I find myself wavering in my faith over and over again. A condition that I must confess, I am so tired of!!!! 

I am asking God to help me to trust Him. A situation presents itself  in my life, I pray and believe God for an answer, He answers and I am in awe at how He works. Not so long, I face another challenge and I am down again, stressed, worried, yes praying but not having enough faith and assurance to believe that if God did it before He can do it again. Its feels like a cycle of unbelief. 

I do feel like I sometimes behave  like the children of Israel during their times in the wilderness, they had tangible evidence of Gods miraculous deliverance but over and over again, they doubted God deliverance when challenges came their way, they were busy complaining and wishing they could return to Egypt.  

But I am grateful to God for His Holy Spirit, He is my helper, He strengths  my soul at such times, best of all I am in the process of learning that I am not supposed to live the Christian life in my own strength but that I should allow the Holy Spirt to live the life of Christ through me.

I have come to cherish Jesus words when He said “it is good that I go”…I am so glad He went…sounds funny but yes I am very happy, because now I have a helper, the Holy Spirit with whom I can walk in fellowship with every day and He always points me back to Jesus and Helps me all the time so that Christ’s strength is made perfect in my weakness.