Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Hurting deeply

I am in the office and I cannot stop thinking about my nephew. I recently shared how God has loved on me, and part of that was the birth of my nephew, Jaden Joseph Karega.

But little did we know that this wonderful boy had 4 weeks to live. The Lord called him home on 1oth of November 2012. I am hurting deeply and I can only imagine how the Mum and Dad are feeling. But I am trusting God to heal our hearts.
These are the photos I had shared in my recent post, busy but loving it...
Sweet Angel...
Forever in my heart Jaden.
 Please pray for Sylvia and Alex during this painful time in their lives.  Sylvia blogs too and you can find her blog here and send a word of encouragement her way.


Saturday, 3 November 2012

To all possessive mothers


Well, can I start by saying that I think i do boarder around being possessive and I am praying about it.
You will hear a lot of stories about mothers and how they are possessive of their children. My friends and I were discussing about this the other day and while it is an area of contention I must admit it is one those issues I am leaning to take to the Lord in prayer because I do not want to go overboard and worst of all, limit God’s move in the lives of our children because of my utter selfishness.

A friend once gave me a story of how her son was so sick for weeks and one day the Lord spoke to her heart and told her, ‘every time you pray for him, you say, God heal "my" son, I want you to say, God, please heal this your child” and the child was instantly healed. The issues was not the grammar, it was the mere lesson that, please remember, he is my son, my child, and you are only a steward.

Let’s think about it further, 
  • David, young boy born of a woman for master’s use, served king Saul and latter become king
  • Samuel, the mother had to let go after weaning for masters use
  • Joseph, separated from family at 17 years of age for masters use
  • Queen Esther – was an orphan, taken in my Mordecai, her uncle …for masters use 
Well, what I am saying is this, God uses men and women, this men and women are born by women. Now the women, who bear these little precious ones, must be careful to remember, these children first and foremost belong to the Lord. They are not ours to keep (What a hard truth!)…Pray that the Lord helps us mothers, not to abort Gods divine purpose for our children just because we cannot let go.

When we attended parenting class by navigators 4 years ago, the underlying message was "preparing our children to leave"…I hope you are preparing yours to leave…because they will…for masters use!!! Well, I am trying…help me Jesus!!!

Thursday, 1 November 2012

Why?



Why is it so hard to trust God even when He has been so faithful in your life and you have absolute evidence in your life that He never fails? I find myself wavering in my faith over and over again. A condition that I must confess, I am so tired of!!!! 

I am asking God to help me to trust Him. A situation presents itself  in my life, I pray and believe God for an answer, He answers and I am in awe at how He works. Not so long, I face another challenge and I am down again, stressed, worried, yes praying but not having enough faith and assurance to believe that if God did it before He can do it again. Its feels like a cycle of unbelief. 

I do feel like I sometimes behave  like the children of Israel during their times in the wilderness, they had tangible evidence of Gods miraculous deliverance but over and over again, they doubted God deliverance when challenges came their way, they were busy complaining and wishing they could return to Egypt.  

But I am grateful to God for His Holy Spirit, He is my helper, He strengths  my soul at such times, best of all I am in the process of learning that I am not supposed to live the Christian life in my own strength but that I should allow the Holy Spirt to live the life of Christ through me.

I have come to cherish Jesus words when He said “it is good that I go”…I am so glad He went…sounds funny but yes I am very happy, because now I have a helper, the Holy Spirit with whom I can walk in fellowship with every day and He always points me back to Jesus and Helps me all the time so that Christ’s strength is made perfect in my weakness.